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Friday, September 6, 2013

"This is for your good!"


This morning, I was wiping Molly's face after breakfast.  Her allergies are all flared up, so she had some snot mixed in with the caked-on oatmeal.  She HATES it when I have to wipe her face.  I held her head, and quickly ran the towel over face.  I spend a bit of time at her nose, for obvious reasons!  The whole time this girl is squirming in her seat, screaming, and pushing my hand away - this child is strong!  I pushed her hands back, and firmly said...

"Stop it, Molly, this is for your good!"

Bam!  Just as the words flung out of my mouth, I recognized them.  All of a sudden, I am stopped in my tracks, right in the middle of wiping her face.  I am stunned.  Something has hit me like a ton of bricks.

"For we know that all things work together for good for those that love God, and are called according to His purpose."  Romans 8:28

God does things FOR OUR GOOD!  I think about the tough times in my life.  The times I have hated.  The times when something I don't like is happening to me.  All the while He is doing something for MY GOOD!

How many times have I screamed and pushed His hand away because I didn't like what He was doing?  And He says to me, "Stop, Katie.  This is for your good."

We discipline and correct our children because we love them.  It is for their good.

The Lord disciplines and corrects His children because He loves us.  It is for our good.

For whom the Lord loves He corrects, Just as a father the son in whom he delights. Proverbs 3:12

Thank you for this reminder, Molly!  You are constantly teaching me!  




Friday, August 30, 2013

Befriend Faithfulness: Baby2K

After being told in November 2011 there is a possibility I may never conceive, here we are with a beautiful one year old girl and another baby on the way!  

It is fun telling people we got pregnant when our daughter was only 9 months old and that they will be 18 months apart.  The looks they give!  The way they tell us we are crazy without actually saying "crazy".  You know what I mean, the phrase, "Oh wow.  I could never do that."  might as well be, "You have lost your mind and are completely crazy."  It's the same reactions we got when people found out we weren't finding out the gender of our baby.  And guess what!  Molly turned out just fine without a pink nursery and having to wear yellows and greens the first day of her life! ;-). Also, by the way, we are not finding out the gender of Baby2K!  And guess what!  He or she will be just fine, as well!  ;-)

So, let me start by saying this, because I know many people are wondering:

Yes, we meant to get pregnant!  Yes, we were trying!  Yes, it was still a surprise! :)

We want a big family.  We want our children close together.  While I know the first few months will be exhausting, I know the bond between these two babies will be so strong!  :). 

We decided before Molly even arrived that we would start trying again when she turns 9 months old.  Being 18 months apart doesn't bother us.  But, we thought it would take a while to get pregnant, since Molly took us so long.  Here is what happened:

I made an appointment to see the doctor in May.  We discussed the plan for getting pregnant.  We decided on doing Femara + lots of ultrasounds + trigger shot + IUI.  Quite a plan.  It was genius.  We were excited!  He cautioned us about the chance it might not happen.  Which he didn't need to tell me.  The Lord has already laughed at our plans before. 

A few weeks later, it was time for me to take the Femara and scheduled our first ultrasound.  Sparing details, my body works soooo slow.  So we would have to schedule a few ultrasounds within a week or two.  They are a hundred dollars each. Wowzers!  During this time, we had gone to the beach, got new tires for my car, and had a few medical bills we need to take care of (like when Josh cut his finger on a dresser knob and needed it glued back together).  Josh, in all his gentleness, sat me down and explained if we continued with the fertility treatments this month, we would be a little strapped.  We need to pay our debtors (the medical people) first and foremost.  I knew he was right, but come on!!! I REALLY want to get pregnant THIS month!!!

I cried.  Josh held me.  I cried some more (begged a little, too)!  Why does my husband have to always be right (he'll be shocked I said that)!  So, I called the fertility doctor and cancelled our appointment, crying of course.  The lady had to ask me several times to repeat myself.  Didn't she know that every time I had to say it again I would just cry more??  A few minutes later my favorite nurse called me.  Here is what she said:

"Katie, remember Molly?  Remember what The Lord did for you?  Remember that NO amount of medicine or medical help will get you pregnant if it is not The Lord's will.  He is the one in control.  You can still get pregnant this month (I might have laughed a little at this.).  He gave you Molly in a way that gave HIM all the glory, not medicine, not doctors, not science.  He received all the glory.  And guess what.  He can do it again!  Don't give up on this month.  Give it over to The Lord, again!"

I wanted to reach through the phone and hug her (she does give the best hugs!)!!  I know many of you are wondering what is the big deal if you have to wait a month.  Anyone who has struggled with infertility knows what skipping a month is like.  A total waste!  The longest month ever!  If we had to skip June, July would have never come.  Seriously.  Infertile women take skipped months very seriously. ;-)

On June 28, our five year wedding anniversary, and way too early to be testing.  I tested.  I woke up before Josh, shocking I know!  Took a test.  Nada.  Got back in bed.  It was too early anyway.  I will test tomorrow, I thought.  Josh mumbled something about it being negative and rolled back over.   When he got up, I went and looked again.  This is what I saw:



Yeah, you probably don't see it.  But I did!  I shoved it in Josh's face.  He said he saw it, but was surprisingly chill (later to find out he didn't actually see anything).

I stared at that test for two hours.  Seriously.  TWO HOURS!  

I took another one a few hours later.  

Do you see it now?  Well, I did!  I emailed it to Josh.  He replied, "We will keep praying!"  Again, he didn't really see anything.   Hmf.

I called my fertility doctor.  "I promise I really do see faint lines on two tests.  It's my anniversary!!! I wanna... I NEED... To know!!!"  The nurses were so giggly with excitement they said I better hurry over (with Molly!).  They took my blood and played with Molly for a while.  They told me they were going to put a rush on it.

As soon as I get home, they call back.  CONGRATULATIONS!!! YOU'RE PREGNANT!  They both said they are hoping for a boy this time! Haha!

I KNEW I saw a line!!! :)

So far, we have had two ultrasounds (both times saw the heartbeat) and are scheduled for another next week.

Our official due date is March 11, 2014.  They will schedule a c-section the week before.  

I don't think I need to say this, but WE ARE SO EXCITED!!!!!  

Our journey with Molly taught us how to wait in Him.  This journey, though much shorter, taught us about His provision and how He provides our needs and even our desires.  But both journeys have been about faith to us.  Our faith is constantly increasing with each blessing He gives us.  Without faith, I doubt we would be so blessed.  If we did not have the faith The Lord would bless us with a baby, we would be childless right now.  We give God all the glory!  It is only through Him, we were able to conceive and it will only be through Him that we will conceive again!  Thank you, Heavenly Father!








Friday, August 16, 2013

Molly is ONE!!!

Yes, I know I have not posted in a L O N G time.  Thankfully, I have found an app that makes posting so much easier.  So maybe I will do it more, now... We will see!

I wanted to write a little bit about Molly turning one!  This was surely the fastest year of my life.  I mean, really!  I blinked and that was it!  I was overwhelmed with tears this morning as I looked down at my baby girl throwing books and diapers (clean ones!) around the house.  She grinned up at me with all 
TEN (almost ELEVEN) teeth shining up at me.  Her smile is the most beautiful one I have ever seen.  Her nose crinkles and her eyes kind of squinch up.  She giggled up at me as I smiled back.  How do you not giggle back at that sweet eruption of laughter??  There are so many things that make my girl laugh, here are a few of them:

1.). Daddy coming home!
2.). Maddux running in circles around her or just being near her.
3.). Any kind of music
4.). When I sing "Mollypop, Mollypop, oh Molly Molly Molly Mollypop...."
5.). When she sees her grandparents and Papa!
6.). Being tickled!  She is very ticklish.
7.). Peek-a-boo
8.). Seeing/hearing a few of her toys
9.). A set of keys
10.). Hearing the name, "Jesus"
11.). Cherry flavored Tylenol
12.). Balloons
13.). The remote control
14.). Getting in her car seat (it doesn't last long before her giggles turn to tears of frustration)
15.). A trip in the shopping cart
16.). My cell phone
17.). Watching the rain
18.). Seeing Mommy or Daddy come get her from her crib
19.). Pulling the pillows and couch cushions off the couch
20.). Climbing under the table
21.). Pushing her toys and chairs around the room
22.). Grabbing her pacie out of her mouth
23.). Feeding the dog *shudder*
24.). Being chased
25.). Grabbing noses and ears
26.). Her reflection in the mirror
27.). Anytime you say, "I'm gonna get you!!"
28.). Banging on the blinds

There are many other things that make her laugh that I am sure I will think of later.  She is teaching me to find joy in the smallest things - like watching the rain.  To me, the rain means "no park today" or "oh no, we are trapped inside all day!"  But to Molly, it's a show, a comedy.  I pull the shades up and she stands at the window laughing at it coming down.  She never tires of it.  She will look back at me to make sure I am laughing, too.  Of course, I am.  But I am laughing at her.  Maddux thinks we are both crazy.  

Molly is doing many things.  Although, we got a late start on many milestones, she is doing it all on "Mollytime".  And that is fine by me!  She was sitting up by 4.5 months.  Pulling up around 6 months.  We didn't roll over till about 8 months.  And even then, it was rare!  She started crawling at 9 months.  Now at 12 months, she is standing on her own and taking a few steps on her own.  But Mommy and Daddy better not try to get her to walk because she won't do it.  She has to do it on her own!

Other "Mollyfacts"

1.). She eats everything!  I mean, everything!  But asparagus is her favorite!  (Proud mommy moment)
2.). She loves to clap!  She claps at everything!
3.). She knows "ball", even though she won't say it yet.  She will go get her ball and throw it to you on command.
4.). She can say Mama, Daddy, Doggie, Maggish (for Maddux), Jesus, Thank you (sometimes), bye bye, okay, uh oh, and woof woof.  
5.). She is starting to enjoy being read to, again.  We went through a phase...
6.). She is a good sleeper.   She started sleeping through the night at 5 weeks.
7.). She is completely independent!  She enjoys playing on her own.
8.). She doesn't like to watch TV (thank goodness!)
9.). She LOVES to dance.
10.). She can use a spoon but I have to put the food on it and set it down.  She knows how to pick it up and put it in her mouth.
11.). She goes to time out at least once a day.  Strong willed through and through!
12.). She loves her aunts and uncles, and especially Garrett and Bogart!
13.). She loves all her little friends!
14.). She loves the pool.  Any water for that matter - bath, splash pad...
15.). She loves Mexican food - yea, girl!
16.). When she is sick, no one can tell (except for the snot)!
17.). She startles easily. Ha ha!!
18.). Her favorite activity is tearing the house down.
19.). Almost walking!!  
20.). She is a dare devil for sure!  Climbs on and out of everything!
21.). She is a master at closing doors and does not like when I open them back up.
22.). Chewing on the Xbox remote is the coolest!
23.). She has been drinking whole milk since 11 months.
24.). She loves the zoo!
25.). So far, she has eaten (like chewed AND swallowed) dog food, napkins, crayons, and a rock from the gas logs.
26.). She enjoys crawling in Maddux's crate (which he HATES!).
27.). She loves her sippy cup and hasn't had a bottle since 11 months old!  Big girl!
28.). She still won't cuddle.  But that's okay.  I am too ADD for it anyway.  But we do share many moments together playing and giggling!
29.). She talks with her hands.
30.). She talks all day long!  She thinks I can understand her. :)


Surely, after I post this I will think of a billion other facts.  But for now, this is it!

Happy birthday, my sweet sweet Mollypop!  I am beyond blessed that I get to be home with you for every one of your adventures - new and old.  I get to witness every giggle and comfort every tear.  Though you know how to wear your Mama out, I treasure every moment with you!  You have brought overwhelming joy to your Daddy and me.  I can't wait to see what this next year holds - but let's not rush it, okay? :)

Friday, January 25, 2013

It's been a while!

I thought I would be better at updating a blog... apparently not!  I am the queen of inconsistency!  And... of course, just as I start to write this post, Molly is stirring around in her crib, soon to be awake and hungry.  I love that she is growing up.  It breaks my heart and I certainly do not have as much free time as I did a few months ago.  But, I love watching her grow, change, and develop!

Molly is just over 5 months old...
She is grabbing at EVERYTHING!  It's adorable.  Anything she sets her eyes on, she tries to grasp.  Which of course, as a metaphor, is a great trait to have! :)  

She is sitting up completely on her own!  Although her favorite position is standing up on her feet while I hold her.  This girl can't wait to walk, I'm sure!

She babbles nonstop, all day long!  I have heard "mama" come out of her mouth lots of times - yes, I know she has no idea what she's saying!  But, I like to think she does :)  I try to get her to say it all the time, but it only comes out when I'm quiet.  

She has rolled over a few times, but we are still working on this!

She can slither a couple inches... but it doesn't come without groans :)

She LOVES green peas and bananas.  She did not like zucchini... Avocado and Sweet Potatoes are hit and miss.

She's not as messy of an eater as her dad is... yet!

Her laugh is hysterical!  She laughs much harder at her dad than with me!  That's okay... he is the funny one in the family, I guess I'm just good for nourishment and nurture! 

Her ears are pierced... yes, people, yes!  After conducting an extensive online research AND discussing it with our pediatrician... it has proven that 4-6 months is the best time to get a little girl's ears pierced.  Of course, that's debatable, I reckon.  But she doesn't pull on/play with them and I can clean them without her fussing.  Also, when she got them pierced she let out a small whimper than started laughing at the security guard.  And I think she looks adorable with them!

She reaches for Maddux but he runs from her - ha!  She has grabbed his fur once while I was holding him.  

Her bedtime is between 9pm and 10pm.  We like to keep it flexible :)  She falls asleep almost instantaneously.  She sleeps till about 9am, sometimes later. - nice for a stay at home mommy :)

She is VERY close to holding her own bottle! :)  

As for me... 

I am enjoying reading Parenting by the Book by John Rosemond with a wonderful group of mommies!  

I have started attending a mom's group on Thursday mornings... complete with devotions and crafts.

So blessed to have started meeting new moms and developing new friendships! :)  

Still praying about selling our house!  We need a larger house... and soon!!  

I am able to stay up later!  This is a wonderful time for Josh and I to chat about our day, discuss Molly, and pray together.

I am still trying to lose weight!!!  Story - of - my - LIFE!

As for Josh...

Still smokin' hott! 


Thursday, October 18, 2012

Happy 2 months, Mollypop!

Happy 2 Months, Mollypop!
Molly turned 2 months yesterday!  Poor girl had to get three shots and had to drink something (which she loved!).  She slept most of the day yesterday and today.  But she did give me plenty of smiles for the camera.  Here are a few of my favorites.  :)


Cutest little tongue!! 

Looks like she's pretending to be driving!

Falling over Dancing!



Rockstar!



Molly weighed in at 9lbs 15oz at her two month check-up, putting her in the 14th percentile.  Funny how the doctors predicted her to be this giant baby when she was born and now she is growing a little slower than average.  She is growing height-wise...over three inches!  She is now 22.5 inches long!  She is still fitting into newborn clothes and diapers.  But we are wearing 0-3 months for the most part.

She smiles and giggles a lot!  She has been initiating a lot of the smiles these days, which makes my heart melt!  My heart becomes overjoyed when I walk up to her crib and she is smiling up at me.  Most of the time her smile is crooked with one eye winking - sooo presh!!!

She is able to hold her head up for longer periods of time and enjoys "sitting up".  Molly and I spend several minutes just talking to each other - coos and ahhs of course.  But, I can tell she is going to be a little chatter box!

Molly is sleeping through the night with no problems!  We've been fortunate from the start.  She sleeps 7-8 hours, sometimes up to 10.  Then she takes a three hour nap.  This girl loves sleep (like her mama!).

She spends a good hour or so just happily taking in her surroundings.  She loves her mobile and her swing.  And she still LOVES cuddles!!

On the other hand...

Josh and I ...
 - take two-three days to finish a movie
 - walk around with the burp cloth still on our shoulder
 - leave the house with spit up still on our clothes
 - have been eating in a lot more often
 - have not lost much sleep (knock on wood)
 - talk A LOT about baby poop, feedings, and naps
 - take a lot of pictures of Mollypop
 - went to the fair without Molly and couldn't wait to get back to her!  We talked about her the whole time!
 - find pacies all over the house
 - sometimes forgets to let Maddux out (mostly me)


I can't wait to see what this third month brings us! :)

Raising Molly

    When we first found out we were pregnant, I was overcome with the responsibility to raise our child to love the Lord, to serve Him, and to serve others.  I immediately began wondering how I was supposed to do this when I am so imperfect and struggle with sins daily.  I began to doubt if I could take on such a task.  How could I ensure my daughter would accept Him as her Savior?  How do I show her how to live a life pleasing to Him when I, so obviously, struggle with things in my life?

    Molly is a gift from God.  It is so evident that He brought her to us at just the perfect time in His will.  Our responsibility is to teach her Biblical truths and demonstrate a love for God's word and for lost souls.  If we continue to show her Christ's love, He will reveal Himself to her. Our prayer is that Molly will receive Him and revel in His grace and mercy.  That all the things she accomplishes will be to His glory.  That she will dedicate her life to pleasing Him rather than man.  That she will commit to a life of service.  That she will always put Him and others above herself.  That He will fill her heart with so much love and compassion.  That she will have a heart for winning lost souls and encouraging fellow believers.  

    Then it hit me.  The prayers I am praying for Molly should also be prayers for myself.  If I want these things for Molly, I should want and exhibit them in my own life.  Woaw, the level of conviction on my heart right now!  My prayer life is certainly changing...  That I will revel in His grace and mercy.  That all the things I accomplish will be to His glory.  That I will dedicate my life to pleasing Him rather than man.  That I will commit to a life of service.  That I will always put Him and others above myself. That He will fill my heart with so much love and compassion.  That I will have a heart for winning lost souls and encouraging fellow believers.

    Sunday, October 14th was Baby Dedication at church.  We dedicated Molly unto the Lord and made a commitment to raise her in Biblical truths.  It was a very special day as we made the verbal commitment to the Lord.  I also made a commitment to the Lord for myself.  That I will be a Godly mother and wife to my family.  They are my mission field and I vow to love, serve, and encourage them.  That I'm never too prideful to admit my sins and plea for repentance, because through that, Molly will learn about Christ's forgiveness and will learn to forgive others.  It is a heavy responsibility, but one that will reap rewards and leave a legacy that was started by my ancestors.






Friday, October 12, 2012

Starting off the weekend!

We met Josh for lunch today at Fuddruckers.  They have the best hot dogs!  It was a nice treat and super fun getting out of the house.  What a beautiful day to get out and enjoy God's creation!  We have the middle school fall retreat this weekend at the YMCA.  Of course, Molly will be tagging along with me.  I hope she behaves herself.  ;)  I pray that the Lord will work in the hearts of these young teenagers and will reveal Himself in a mighty way.  I pray that the Lord may use me, despite the distractions, to encourage my young girls in their walk with Christ.  Looking forward to a wonderful weekend!